Id Hate To Be You When People Find Out What This Song Is About - Mayday Parade
SOUL SOCIETY
LIFE IN SEREITEI
SHINIGAMI
OTHER SQUADS
REPORT
LIFE IN SEREITEI
SHINIGAMI
OTHER SQUADS
REPORT
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
i saw some videos on youtube today and i suddenly realised that its been a long time since i last cried. normally my friends who watch some touching movies would sorta cry whereas i dont even have the feeling. i just find that its not worth it in a sense plus i cant even cry even if i wanted to. its just so strange i dont know how to describe it. my mind is so confused now. i always thought crying would be humane nature but now im trying hard to find that feeling. that reason, for me to cry about,be depressed about. i always thought that not crying were for those 'real men' but now i think that crying is about letting your emotions through. letting people know how i feel. i feel that i have lost a part of me that was hidden somewhere inside the past. i will try hard to grasp that kind of feeling when i knew how to let people know of my feelings. i feel too that this part of me that is missing is the nature of caring for someone, the want to please someone, the nature to love my friends and all others unselfishly.
feeling a bit depressed right now. but still that part of me is still missing, lost somewhere inside trying to find a way out...
6:22 PM
HITSUGAYA TOUSHIROU.